The “I don’t WANNA!” is 100% predictable. The way through it is faith, and a way to implant faith is the “Morning Ritual”. Now, you won’t stick with THAT either, at first. That’s just a fact of people. laugh at it. You’ll have to get back on the horse a few times. But if you will accept support for just this piece of the puzzle, you’ll begin to be more aware of the ways your ego stops you (oh, yes! If there is a value or self-image conflict, you’ll sabotage to slow yourself down!)
Here’s an exercise: write a story about someone with a goal, and they sabotage themselves in EXACTLY the same way you do with writing or exercise. Pull the tactics up to consciousness. Write them down. See what answers you come up with!
And laugh. Your “breaking training” just means you’re human.